Thursday, September 10, 2009

Guess What?


Wednesday, June 17, 2009

I'm so damn bored! Sorry people, it's just.. I'm so nervous! I'm so scared, because I'm not graduating from Labschool yet. The announcement is this Saturday, and I can't help it...! I'm sooooooooooo scared!! I'm just hoping that all these effort that I've put on, can finally save me through. I don't care about a thing! I can't even concentrate on doing things. I can't even concentrate on typing this post. Well. Pray for me people. PLEASE. PRAY FOR ME!

-Karenina S. A. Moestadjab

Saturday, May 23, 2009

Siti Janda says; मैं आपसे प्यार करता / करती हूँ, Vikram.

SMOVE 2009, Watch Our Movie There! 30 May 2009

Thursday, May 21, 2009

We're not meant for each other

"Why wouldn't you love me like I do?"

"Well, maybe because I'm not you, you know?"

"B-but why??"

"Cause I'm not a goodie-goodie-frilly-pinky-sweetie-lover kind of person"

"But, I am that kind of person..."

-The Barf Bird


Hey, good news! I'm....... BORED.

Have you checked out my Tumblr yet? Well you better check it! I started to post some of my drawings there, since Blogger seems to be more comfortable to post writings. Well, I'm doing a project on.. Designing my farewell party dress! HA!
It's pretty much a simple dress, because I don't really like to wear dresses though.. Should I post the sketch here? I don't think so.. Maybe I'll post it later after the farewell. 

For now? So long, farewell!

-Karenina S. A. Moestadjab

Tuesday, May 19, 2009


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I thought that someone cursed me! Seriously! OH MY OH MY! I felt relieved for awhile, since nothing's been bothering me. Until yesterday. I don't know where to start! Okay, take a deep breath and read.

A view days ago, I confirmed a friend request in Facebook. And, at the same day, I confirmed a buddy request in MSN too. At first, I thought that the person who's adding me is my elementary school friend.

"An old friend, well, what could possibly go wrong?" you'll probably said that. Guess what?

Well, unfortunately he/she's not my elementary school friend. We've never met before. Stranger. I don't know who he/she is. But there's something I knew for sure. He/She's CREEPY.

He/She started to communicate with me using FB chat. Then, I signed out because I was too scared. But the creepy part's not over yet, he/she reached me with MSN too.

The way that he/she talked to me may refer to a pedophile, talking while giving candy to it's prey. I've blocked his/her MSN, and I've removed him/her from my friend list in FB.

HA! Do you think I can sit back and relax then? If your answer is yes, than you're WRONG!!

Pedophile: eh eh, gue/aku di remove friend nih ? wah songong, ngajak ribut ? hehehehehe . jawab loh yah, awas engga wrawr


Pedophile: hey hey, I've been removed from your friend list, eh? wow, you're so brave, messing up with me? hehehehehehe. reply this, you better watch out if you don't wrawr.

Okaaaaaaaaaaay! What's with the 'WRAWR' part? Eh, Tiger? I'm pretty tough you know. I'm strong enough to knock you out. I sure can do that, even with my eyes shut and hands behind my back. So you better watch out, tiger

p.s he/she's older than me, so what? fuck off, bastard!

Monday, May 18, 2009

August, Please Come Early For Me

Dear August,

How come you never showed up? It's been quite a hectic year you know, for me.. I'm waiting for your presence with a heart full of joy. Yeah, I know we didn't get to know each other yet. But I'd love to meet you, soon. Please August, please. Please come early for me.

-The Barf Bird

Fashion Illustration, Drawing Tablet

YAAAAAAAAAAY! It's my first (blog) published fashion illustration!


Saturday, May 16, 2009

Heather Bill

This is my 'ME TIME'. So what are you doing here?

Bugging me? Is that's what you're trying to do? Well.


Hey hey hey! Why are you doing? Staring at me like that!
You have no right to do that, and I'm not giving it!


Oh, well well well.. Look who's here? Jimmy Burke.
You're dead, mate.


Friday, May 15, 2009

Heartless Bastard

Heartless bastard? I feel like one right now. Why?

The courage that I need to be myself is all gone, now.
I gave my dignity to the poor, for them to wear. Then I have none.
I willingly put away my faith too, despite my heart I control myself.
Just let me die. I'm already dying.
I'm a heartless bastard. Yes I am.
Maybe not to you. But to me? I sure do.
Took my brain, body, inspiration, aspiration, mind, anything.
But my heart you can't. Cause I have none.
I'm a heartless bastard. Yes I am.
Consider nothing but my heart.
But. I'm a heartless bastard. So just go throw me away.
Just put me in that damn corner. You can throw me rotten eggs as much as you want.
Consider nothing but my heart. I don't have one.
Soar to the sky. Tell the seagull to spread the news. I'm already dead.
I really am. From that moment. When he took my heart away.
A Heartless bastard. That's who I am.

-The Barf Bird

Thursday, May 14, 2009

That's Just... LAME

I can see what you're trying to put off, but here's some suggestions from me:

  1. Stop copying phrases from English Test questions.
  2. Just endure speaking/writing with the language.
  3. Speak with someone back there in your 'native country'.
  4. Get a new excuse book.
  5. Go see a psychologist. Seriously, you need one.
I'm just so embarrassed that I even know you. I didn't mean to be harsh, but I have to. Cause you're just so annoying. Can't you just get a new life? GAH!

Sorry. You're just too... Annoying. Like a buzzing bee, you know? Buzz.. Buzz.. Buzz..


Wednesday, May 13, 2009


"Strangely, you just popped into my mind"
"After all these month of ever knowing you"
"You suddenly reappeared"
"Here, in my mind"
"I don't know why"
"Neither do my mind"
"All those memories that I kept away"
"Where I locked them"
"Where's the padlock?"
"It disappeared..."
"..........And there's you, memories about you"
"Sitting there beside me"
"Telling me stories that I'm trying to forget"
"Stories from all those past days"
"Stories that used to blow me away"


"You know that I'm not capable to handle this"

-The Barf Bird


Things I Miss, Alot:

  1. My Dad
  2. Drama Club: With The Theater Warriors
  3. My Former Class: 7b, 8d
  4. Friday Food Favor: With my two best mates
  5. Skema: Searching for sponsors with Tika, Fadia, Riris, Adis, Astrid, Pak Satria and Pak Aris
  6. 80's Bulda Ladies: With all the craziness!
  7. Antar Jemput Pamulang: With all our silliness and of course craziness!
  8. GKJ Performance: I miss all those days practicing with the sound of gamelan everywhere.
  9. Petualangan Laos: With the truth that I can't reveal there... Sorry!

Sorry, Cupcake..

"Sorry petite Cupcake.."

"But it seems like nobody's attracted to you anymore.."
"Your frosting are just getting pretty boring"
"I can't stand it baby.."
"You're giving me cavity"
"And  you're gonna be mad at me?"
"....You have to see the cavity you're causing me"
"All those days you try to comfort me"
"Then ditch me for another thick red lips"
"I'm sick of all of this"
"Maybe this time next week, month, year, or probably just tomorrow?"
"I don't know when"
"But someday, they'll ditch you"
"And then throw you away into that trash can across the corner"
"Then you'll have none"
"Nothing but your rotten heart"
"Just wait and see.."


"Sorry, Cupcake"
"I guess.. My Marshmallow fellows  are waiting for me"
"So long, darling"

-The Barf Bird

Ol' Man Jenkins

"Why do older guy like ol' man Jenkins watch porn?"


"Maybe Spongebob wasn't so attractive.."


"I don't like Spongebob either"
"So can I watch porn with ol' man Jenkins?"


Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Tribute To SV

Dear, SV..

Or, should I say: Dear, SV's creator.. oops!
I should have apologize to
 you, after I block your MSN.. Sorry! But I can't endure lying...

GEE! How rude! I should have introduce you first!

Okay, meet my friend, SV. She's a sophomore in WCHS, Lethbridge (or so she had told me)
She's very clever. In age same as mine, she's already a 10th grader, but she's going to graduate in 2010.. That makes her a junior, right? WOA! Brainiacs!

She's adorable too! She looks just like Zooey Deschannel! 
here's a photo of her

strangely, i found out that the photo really is Zooey Deschannel. Sorry for being skeptical.. But I try to figure out who are you SV.. I still don't understand why there's no one there in WCHS that knows you existence. Strange, right? Cause you're so beautiful! And smart too! 

Okay, enough. SV, I know who you really are. That's pathetic, faking your identity. And you're not doing it well... Maybe my english is bad, but not as bad as you. Sorry.. It's just another mistake that you did by yourself. Now you're blocking me, and I know why. It's because all of my skeptical questions right? I'm jeopardizing your existence. I know. I meant to do that, cause I hate faker. 

Oh, and your biggest mistake? Your creator blocked me too. HUGE MISTAKE. Maybe, if you didn't do that, I wouldn't figured out who you really are.

Dear SV, it's strange to know that you ask my friend this question:
"Oh, u can call me Vanessa. This year is my second year in Winston Churchill. Is there one of your friend want to school in Canada? I think nope want, right?"

Why do you happened to go to WCHS, after the fact that I wrote my goal to go to that school like, umm EVERYWHERE? And, what's with the weird sentence "I think nope want, right?".

I knew from the moment I wrote those messages in your wall, that you're not really Canadian, and you're not really exist either. That moment, I already figured out who you really are too. Those messages are just a bait to trap you. And you know what? It worked! You're panicking, and blocking me everywhere. Not to consider anything, you block me from your real account too. Your creator's account.

Sorry SV, GAME OVER- darling!

p.s sorry if I'm being such a mean girl, FAKER.

best regards,

Karenina S. A. Moestadjab

Monday, May 11, 2009

My Sister Is Such A Crybaby -Part TWO!!


It's such a relieve that I finally find something interesting to post here! Haha.. I've been through so many sick- boring days... I had influenza now, and I think I could really sneeze my guts out!! How sick is that! GAH!

Well.. As I told you in my past post(past- post? haha it sounds kinda funny to me) I'm going to study abroad, and before I go there I have to finish some business here, that business includes getting my braces off(yeah, I wear braces). So, recently I went to the dentist with my mom and my sister. I just got my braces tightened, but the doctor finds out that my sister has even bigger problem than my orthodontics teeth.. CAVITY

The doctor then ask my sister to open her mouth and started to drill her teeth, and guess what? Yeah I knew you'd guess this.. SHE CRIED! My mother can't even stand it! She laughed heavily with me outside the dentist's office! HA!

Dentist: "It's not gonna hurt"
My sister: (crying)
Dentist: "Don't cry honey... I won't hurt you"
My Mom: (holding her laugh)
Me: (laughing)
My sister: "It tickles..(crying)"
Dentist: "It tickles?"
My Mom: "Excuse me..(dragging me outside the doctor's office)

outside the dentist's office

Mom and Me: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA (laughed heavily)

here's a video that shows my crybaby sister, enjoy!


-The Barf Bird

Saturday, May 2, 2009

Hey- Ho!

Hey hey hey! I've been studying for my National Final Exam lately, so my mom kinda keep my laptop somewhere out of my reach. Let's see what I've done...

Karenina's To Do List:

  • Buy a Moleskine sketch book (V)
  • Finish National Final Exam (V)
  • Go to PIK with friends (V)
  • Sleepover at Ayu's (V)
  • Attend March's birthday (V)
  • Had sores on my feet (V)
  • Buy a new drawing table (  )
  • Buy some acrylic paint (  )
  • Rehearse for Music test with 80's Ladies (  )
  • Rehearse for Music test with 9c girls (  )
GAH! There's still so many things that I have to do... Oh God! I'm exhausted!

seriously, I need one..

-The Barf Bird

Friday, April 24, 2009


"Do you hear what they just said?"

"The parakeet"
"They'll be back"

-The Barf Bird

Granny, As Deaf As A Post

"...........WHOA! Look at you!"

"You're... ALIVE!"
"But you do look a little..."
"Pale, dear"
"Should I get you something? A nice refreshing glass of lemonade, huh darling?"
"A slice of that delicious looking pie, maybe? No?"
"Well then... What can I do to help you?"


"Remember dear, you might be as shiny as a well shaped diamond, but your heart is just as hard as a diamond too dear.."
"You might bleed someone's heart with that diamond blade heart.."
"Maybe you're as sweet as a poisoned apple.."
"Sweet and dangerous"

"You know... We're in the middle of a poker game"
"Everything you see, isn't what it is"
"Maybe all of this nice things galore around you..."
"..........But those knifes are ready to stab your back"
"We're all standing in a long line, waiting for our name to be called"
"Waiting to play our role that has written here, in this script that called destiny"
"And you? You'll never know what's going to happen next.."
"Cause you're just an audience..."
"........And you've never paid that much attention"
"You keep your eyes shut all the time"
"That's good... You'll never gonna see pain"
"But you'll be blind"
"Blind, dear....."


Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Time Bomb

I can't believe it! It seems like I've hit a fast forward button, and the rest of the school year is just a breath away. I still remember the smell of my new-unworn-junior high uniform. I remember how I felt when my heart pounds like it could explode anytime, during the day as I waited the announcement from Labschool Kebayoran JHS, if I make it or not. And now.. As the time goes by, I feel like those days are just a dream. Sweet-scary dream.

The time is ticking, I better be hurry, the time bomb will explode any second now.
And all this will disappear.

Thursday, April 16, 2009


-Karenina S. A. Moestadjab

Lady Gaga

"When Lady Gaga was a little girl,"

".....................she was a little girl?!"


Wednesday, April 15, 2009

April, 15

Hey, hey hey! Today is my favorite day! It's my birthday! Nothing's really special about it, but I'm still really-really excited about the fact that I'm turning 15 today! Speaking of which, here's a list of my birthday present.

Karenina's Birthday Present:
  1. MOM: Fashion Illustrator book. WOW! I really really HAPPY when I saw the cover of that book. I've been dreaming of having it since I could remember! It's a guide book that shows me how to draw different kinds of clothing. WOA
  2. SISTER: Pelican Drawing Marker. In all different colors! She really knew that I loooooove colors! I already imagine what kind of drawing that I'll make using my new marker. *drool
  3. BROTHER: Beng Beng. It's a chocolate wafer haha! It's really cute, he attach a ribbon to it haha. p.s my brother is 4 years old.
  4. UNCLE: Adobe Master Collection. WOOOOSH! My laptop's already full of images right now. HA!
  5. YOU-KNOW-WHO(I don't want to mention his/her name): Drawing Tablet. GRAA!
  6. FRIENDS: SMS, Wall Messages, Blog Posting.
I really really appreciate all of your presents, it means a lot to me. Today, I think God gave me present too, I don't seem having so much trouble with my exam. I hope, I got great grades! AMIN! But, birthday's not about what present that you get, it's about you, going another step to higher level of maturity. I think, every year I had misunderstood the word mature, and although I could search it in dictionary, the definition of mature itself is different according to whom the definition is asked.
mature |məˈ ch oŏr; -ˈt(y)oŏr|adjective ( -turer, -turest)fully developed physically; full-grown she was now a mature woman owlsare sexually mature at one year.• having reached an advanced stage of mental or emotionaldevelopment characteristic of an adult a young man mature beyond hisyears.• (of thought or planning) careful and thorough on mature reflection he decided they should not go.• used euphemistically to describe someone as being middle-aged or old Miss Walker was a mature lady when she married.• (of a style) fully developed Van Gogh's mature work.• (of a plant or planted area) complete in natural development :mature trees.• (of certain foodstuffs or drinks) ready for consumption.denoting an economy, industry, or market that has developed to a point where substantial expansion and investment no longer takes place.(of a bill) due for payment.verb [ intrans. ](of a person or animal) become physically mature children mature at different ages she matured into a woman.• develop fully the trees take at least thirty years to mature.• (of a person) reach an advanced stage of mental or emotional development men mature as they grow older.• (with reference to certain foodstuffs or drinks) become or cause to become ready for consumption [ intrans. leave the cheese to mature [trans. the Scotch is matured for a minimum of three years.(of an insurance policy, security, etc.) reach the end of its term and hence become payable.DERIVATIVESmaturely |məˈtʃʊ(ə)rli| |məˈt(j)ʊ(ə)rli| adverbORIGIN late Middle English : from Latin maturus ‘timely, ripe’ ; perhaps related to matins 

I'm glad that God give me the chance to live my life until today, I'm hoping that I'll get whatever that is good for me according to God's grace. I'm hoping that from now on I'll be a better person.
After all I just wanna say THANK YOU EVERY BODY! Have a nice day everyone!

-The Barf Bird

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Tiger's Lullaby and Moon Jeopardy

Hey! I'm planning to post my sketches later, so I'm just going to tell you that I really appreciate if you score them. Pick "Tiger's Lullaby" if it's hot, and "Moon Jeopardy" if it's not. I sort of like the sound of jeopardy, when you pronounce it, and jeopardy means.....

jeopardy |ˈjepərdē|
noundanger of loss, harm, or failure Michael's job was not in jeopardy.• Law danger arising from being on trial for a criminal offense.ORIGIN Middle English iuparti, from Old French ieu parti ‘(evenly) divided game.’ The term was originally used in chess and other games to denote a problem, or a position in which the chances of winning or losing were evenly balanced, hence [a dangerous situation.]
right? I copied it from Apple Dictionary.
And what's about Tiger's Lullaby? Well, the idea of tiger's it self already reflect the word: wild, fierce etc. What could possibly rock Tiger to sleep? Something's that isn't lame of course. Something that rocks. That could rock baby tiger to sleep. HA! -Thunderstorm

Monday, April 13, 2009


I really like blogging now. I don't know if it's going to last forever, but I really enjoy it, for now. The thing about blogging that I like is, it really helps me with my English. As you might know from my older post, that I'm in a path to obtain the Barf Bird's dream. Yeah. That path includes improving my bad English and me,  studying abroad, in Canada. HA! I speak in Indonesian Language all-the-time here, but in just 4 months I have to change that habit. I HAVE TO ENDURE SPEAKING IN ENGLISH! GAH! I really excited about studying abroad, but I can't imagine how can I survive the language differences. I really like to talk. I TALK A LOT. Maybe, you'll see me and think that I'm such a quiet girl, but I'm not. So, now I'm practicing. I start blogging in English. Maybe it's a good way to start improving my language skills, right?

me, thinking about my bad english while blogging and watching tv in my mother's bedroom                                                                                -The Barf Bird

Saturday, April 11, 2009

My Sister Is Such A Crybaby

"....(sobbing) why, OH WHY! It's not fair! The internet can't work here, but it's working properly in your laptop! WHY DO YOU HATE ME? INTERNET!"


"sis, THE INTERNET...!"


"oh, never mind. It's working now."


-The Barf Bird

So Stop Sobbing Would You?

"Focus, focus.. Okay. You're NOT a BROCCOLI, you're a MUSHROOM RAVIOLI. You're attractive!"




My Favorite Word

pulchritude |ˈpəlkrəˌt(y)oōd|noun poetic/literarybeauty.DERIVATIVESpulchritudinous |ˌpəlkrəˈt(y)oōdn-əs| |ˈˈpəlkrəˈˈt(j)udn=əs| |-ˈtjuːdɪnəs| adjectiveORIGIN late Middle English from Latin pulchritudo, from pulcher,pulchr- beautiful.’(source: Apple Dictionary)-Thunderstorm


"Do you know about Kate Moss?"

"Does she know anything about me?"

-The Barf Bird

Friday, April 10, 2009


"Hey pretty lady! Is that a zit in your forehead? Oh come on... Sky isn't a sky without any stars"

"Oh great! I almost got her heart!"  


Wednesday, April 8, 2009

The Barf Bird's Dream

I adore sketches! I really am. So, now I'm in a process of training to obtain the chance to be a fashion illustrator. I like fashion, but I think my taste will ruin my sketch. The girl who's never worried about what she's wearing -that's who I am. I don't have the courage to explore myself in those kind of clothing, that girly girly frilly thingy. But I'm proud of my friend Fia, she's really talented as a future fashion designer. I hope she could do such a great job, cause she's gifted you know? Maybe my gift is I can tell my stories out of my sketch. So wish me luck with the path that I chose, I want to be a Fashion Illustrator. At least for now, 


Thunderstorm and The Barf Bird
Karenina S. A. Moestadjab

Friday, March 6, 2009

silly drawings

it's the turnip man!